I visited your grave today. I know the only thing there is your body and your soul is somewhere else, but I always feel like you are right there when I go. No matter how much time passes I don't see the hurt ever healing. There are so many regrets there. So many things we both should have done to stay closer. I also know thinking about the what ifs is like rocking in a rocking chair...it gives you something to do but never gets you anywhere.
I dusted away the leaves that were piling up on your headstone and the wreaths and decorations that are there. I know it doesn't do much good since they will blow right back over but it made me feel better at the time. I made something to add to the collection today too.
I heard a song that makes me think of you. Barely in your 50s, you left too soon. I listen to it and it makes me sad, but then i remember that at least you aren't in pain anymore. Knowing that doesn't heal my hurt but it takes the edge off the pain when I think about it.
You always called me Angel, and now you are mine. I know you have been looking out for me since you left us two years ago. This is my song for you:
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